Uncomfortable

Nothing excites more to siblings Balik kampung and gather with family, expecially during the festive month. I've never experiance that because I've never been far away from my parents and I'm the eldest among only 3 siblings. And most of the time our room is our nesting place. Even if we travel back to our grandma's house, we will end up in a hotel. Each room just for ourselves. Growing up reserved almost half of your life, you haven't experiance 'tidur lambak' nor the things what a real Balik kampung feel is.
Now married to a big family, the things I've never experiance, the ritual of tidur lambak, ritual of big family gathering eating in one big dulang, the loudness of 10 siblings (my husbands side), shock me at first..., frankly even after 4 years and now with 2 beautiful children, I still get uncomfortable whenever we have to sleep in together with the rest of the Inlaws. Expecially when you are in a phase of fully breastfeed. Malu, and uncomfortable fits me everytime. Everytime. And tht everytime I try to swallowed my frustration and forcing myself to adapt.

Bukan Senang.

Staring at the empty ceiling,

Little Daughter so peacefully asleep

Gazing at her wedding ring

While your mother darling is thinking deep

The eldest Son playing downstairs

Shouting singing his joy heart out

When she is holding tight her sorrow tears

How tough a long distance about

nad 19.0515

Love Notes. 3:31

Pernah berkata - "Asik kita jer yg buat semua, asik kita jer yg try to spice things up, mcm kita ni yg "wear the pants in the family". I've been there, and at times bila marah mula hati resik berkata, but if we allow our self to said it out loud, yg sakit nanti siapa? Kita kan. Before i was introduce to a solution from our Holly Al-QURAN, i used to say all those things whenever i feel tired and depressed of "Our Relationship", until i practice and appreciate this :

Katakanlah (wahai Muhammad): "Jika benar kamu mengasihi Allah maka ikutilah daku, nescaya Allah mengasihi kamu serta mengampunkan dosa-dosa kamu. Dan (ingatlah), Allah Maha Pengampun, lagi Maha Mengasihani. (3:31)

Dato Dr' Fatimah Az Zahra berkata " wahai Isteri baca lah Surah ini Al-Imran Ayat 31 setiap kali lepas Solat dan hembus lah Pada suami ketika dia sedang tidur atau tiap kali berjumpa dgn Suami baca lah ini dlm hati, Nescaya tambah Sayang dan Cinta dia terhadap Kita.

Percaya pada Yg Maha, Wuduk Solat Jaga dan Amal ini, percayalah you will Start to feel the Love and serenity and Your Spouse will slowly change and show more affection towards you. Atas Nama Dia juga kita Nikah dgn Partner kita kan, dan juga atas Nama Dia beri petunjuk Mana datangnye nak pupuk Kasih Sayang. If other religion practice forgive and forget, why cant us, and of all the method in the world we have Him "Ya Al Rahman, Ya Al Rahim" to seek for answer. So remember, whenever you feel disheartened and feel down due your relationship with your spouse, cry if you need, stand up and wudukla and seek his forgiveness and apply Al-Imran 3-31 in your prayers. Insyallah Dgn Izin yg Maha.

The Only Exception..Part 1

Marriage, No Argument, No Fight, All Love and Butterflies? Bohong lah....nampak sngt menipu.

Marriage is Arguments,Fights,Quarrels,get mad at each other,unsatisfied,Annoyed... name all the Negative feelings... Semua ada.

But kalau awak tu nama Islam.. Yg Atas tu kan ada, untuk tenang kan diri and bring you back to the ground. Kalau kafir boleh bertolenrasi and settle it slowly and humanly possible, kenapa kita naik hantu?

Dugaan yg Maha and Gangguan Setan Namanye.

No, i'm not an marriage expert or pro sngt to say all this...but growing up with parents fights almost your whole life and being married for 4 years...i have the right to say what i think.

I have my worst night..but i'm still in to him..no matter how bad some situation we had....i'll get very up-sad and depressed...but i learn how to control over the past years...yes i used to throw tantrums and raise my voice if ever i feel unsatisfied....but maybe having him around brings the best in me, walaupun there's one or two i still feel annoyed, but that doesn't mean he didn't feel the same way towards me. No Human is PERFECT.

Tatkala Sempit itulah datangye duga,
Ditekan, Dihimpit sampai terluka,
Marah, Angin, Merajuk senang sahaja,
Ingatlah hidup berdua atas nama hanya Yg Dia.

Hello!

People Say New life comes new book, But My New Life or should i said married life started 4 years ago, And it is a great adventure so far, Marriage Comes Responsibilities, Hardship, Love, Stress, tolerance, and list goes on... For the past 3 years We've been Busy, Move to KL, Staying in chick old Apartment, Honeymooners for a year and were bless with our first born - Mikail Sya'rawi by our 2nd year of togetherness.

How 2 years have past, now he is expecting a sister soon.

Now 2015,We have move away from the busy town back to Shah Alam, but to a new Township Called Setia Alam, maybe we had enough of staying in an apartment, and soon to be 4 of us, we decide to move in to a double story house bigger space for the kids to run around, and me to have my own room and space. Little girl is within weeks to deliver and new profound title i am currently hold, keeping busy and nesting with a toddler running the house is not easy. But here to a new adventure of becoming Ibu of two. Ganbate Nad.